This book is the story of a female coachs journey into the male dominated world of coaching rugby. The journey provides a parallel between the authors personal and spiritual growth and her realization that coaching sport in the modern world conflicts with any awakening and development of the human spirit. The authors personal journey of getting to spirit begins with a realization that ordinary men and women have been living and operating in fear and judgment for most of their lives. In the parallel world of coaching and sports, we have been operating under this same fear and judgment. There is a realization that our society has