It is a novel-memory, a novel-confession, a novel-search. The daughter is trying to investigate the reasons for her mother\'s suicide. Why did a very beautiful girl, the third child in a friendly family, whose photo was on many posters, feel unspeakable sadness? Why couldn\'t she later, when she married and became the mother of two wonderful daughters, adapt to society? .. This work is full of sadness, tenderness, pain, and, nevertheless, thirst for life.